HAPPY BLESSED 19TH BIRTHDAY RIDWAN!!!
i know you won't read this but still, i just want to type it here, like a dedication post aka birthday wish(tho i wished him like 2 times haha) so here it goes...
time flies yes, 5 months of knowing and talking to each other and it really feels surreal because i really didn't expected us to be this close after knowing that you actually knew i eyecandy you. it was super duper awkward and i had no intention/motive either. i didn't know how we started talking.. i mean yes, we did talked about osep and that was our very FIRST topic but eventually, we started snapchat but again, i don't know how that even happened(?!?!?) most probably it was me who started it because i was the one who kept fangirling about you gosh, it was the most embarrassing period but i don't really care so i just did what i love.
maybe i tried a little hard to get your attention, MAYBE but oh well,. it was really fun talking to you and you always go with the flow whenever i start a stupid joke or a lame conversation. the fact that we actually talked everyday and despite not replying to each other for hours, i actually thought that that was the reason that made us closer. we had something to talk and joked about and we had some things in common too, which was a miracle, like seriously. really thank god i actually chose to talk to you longer and get to know you better:)
just like that, we became very close. honestly speaking, i didn't even realized until we went out. just a little secret i should say and so here it is:
i am actually super duper awkward when i go out with someone i like. i actually take a lot of courage, probably few days to actually say, "ok let's go this and that"
but,
when it comes to you, it was different. i was shocked, my friends were shocked too. the fact that i was actually comfortable talking and telling you about anything and everything... i couldn't believe it either. the conversation keeps going on and on and on and funny how you would still take the time to listen to me. it was nice having someone to listen, really nice.
and for that, thank you so much. thank you for being one of the most genuine guy that i know. you are a blessing in my life, even for this short 5 months but it feels like as though we knew each other for quite long. i don't know how to elaborate the word 'thank you' but really, everyday, i keep myself going is partly because of you... because of the things you said that makes me believe myself again and reminding myself that there's always someone that will be there for me no matter what the circumstances are. you said you believed in me and you always have faith in me, it was the little things that you do and say that keeps me going. i almost gave up, but thanks to you:)
you're a great guy. you're so unique and special and you will always be special to me. is this some kind of a confession that i like you(??) i guess not because i am not ready to even say the truth about how i feel towards you. but so long i can keep you close to me, i am more than thankful. see you next year ridwan, i know this 4 months is going to be god damn slow because i always think about you before i sleep and when i wake up and to be honest, i don't know why either. haha, i really miss you though, even though we didn't even see each other often but i don't know, the fact that you're in korea and i am here, and adding on, you're not going to be in school for one whole semester... ouch :(
but again, i hope you're enjoying your time there:) happy birthday once again, and i'll see you next year my angel xoxo
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